So I have been mauling over this question, “when is the last time I expressed gratitude to anyone for loving me?” and I realized it’s been a while. And so that is what I am going to do. But I am going to start with the male members of society because I spend most of the time referring to them as selfish, arrogant bastards and … Continue reading to the men that loved us.
“words are tsunamis, yet people splash them around like puddles.” hell like yeah. “you are cold and somewhat cocooned.” while this is somewhat true, I am yet to think of anything that has made me question myself as much. I think by now, most of you know that i am an introvert. so it goes without saying that i am not good with people. i … Continue reading words are tsunamis, yet we splash them around like puddles.
So sometime back, my sister asked me if I have ever been heart-broken. I said no. this is for two reasons. First, I do not like admitting, even to myself, that I have been heartbroken. Some part of me desperately wants to believe that I am not that emotionally pathetic.(I mean, hearts don’t really break. Come on people.) But the main reason why I denied … Continue reading Shadow of my footprints
So blood is thicker than water. Growing up, I thought there was something wrong with this saying. It just never felt right. I think a part of me always knew that family is not always better than friendships. That family doesn’t always come first. My only problem was I had no way of convincing anyone that this saying isn’t very accurate. But that was until … Continue reading Blood is thicker than water??
You wouldn’t believe this(i do not believe it myself either) but people think i am funny.granted, i have a sense of humour, but funny? lets not get crazy. and i get anxious when someone calls me funny because i feel like every word i say after that has to be rib-cracking,and i just cannot handle that amount of pressure. that’s the same thing with my … Continue reading Have you ever…
there are those days i am unable to sleep, like almost all nights. i am beginning to learn that it is impossible to sleep when your brain wanders as far as mine does. so those nights i just lay in bed, and go wherever my mind takes me. and i think, think and think some more until my head hurts and my eyes gets so … Continue reading nights like these…
so today i choose to trust; to feel and to get hurt. to love even those people i have been told i should never waste my sights on. to believe that they would never disappoint me. actually, i know they will but i want to give them the benefit of the doubt. to let the past stay there. i choose to give humanity a second … Continue reading gut over reason..
to choose too look away turn your back and never around to lose the door and throw the keys locking yourself in your pains choosing to stumble in darkness to hope to find your own light to accept that a little pain is healthy and a little distance is eye-opening. to choose to put yourself first to say no and pretend not to feel guilty … Continue reading Letting go
Esther Vushya Julius.. so i am going to use this name as an adjective, for as much as i try, i cannot seem to find an adjective that will aptly describe the friend you’ve been…and hopefully will remain. Esther is for that graceful air, its been five years and i still cannot wrap my head around how you keep that up. how you hold so … Continue reading EVJ…
Days like these feel wreckedExpectations not metHopes crushedEyes welling upStaring up at pregnant cloudsImpatient to birth their share of anguishRegardless of the raining anger inside. Days like these feel stupidThe voices of reason we ignoredThe jerks we hoped would keep their wordThe fantasies that kept us awakeDreams we knew wouldn’t come trueTired eyesIs it sleep or tears? Days like these feel unappreciatedEmotions loaned to unworthy … Continue reading Days like these